i cant sleep,
anxiety and worries would creep into my mind once i shut my eyes.

i'm afraid, fearful and terrified,
that i will not be able to make it to poly this year.
i know that im been rly paranoid here and tt it's pointless for me to worry and be all stressed up about it as all the papers have been marked and graded.
but i cant help it.

failure from the past is coming back to haunt me.

been able to study in a polytechnic rly matters a hell lot to me.

as i journeyed home from nyp ytd,
there were many times where insecurities and doubt would overwhelmed me and make my tears gather at the brink of my eyes. i asked myself if i'll be swallow my pride and go to ite if i dont make it to poly this tym rd. deep in my heart, i know it's gonna be real tough even though i'll end up in poly eventually but it's like gg a huge merry-go-round. imagine, when all my friends are busy pursuing their degrees, im still doing my diploma.

however,
that will not happen.
i will make it to poly this tym rd.
yes. i will.

it doesnt matter if i get into HTM or not, or even event planning, i'll be more den contented, delighted and satisfied as long as i can get into a business course.

i know God is a good God and He will not give me a stone when i ask him for bread.
If He cares and provide for the sparrows in the skies, what more will He do for me.
He knows my anxiety and my thoughts even before i speak them out.

i must and i will have faith that will triumph over my fears.
so i dont have to worry.
yes. i dont.

eventually, everything boils down to God and what He wants me to do in my life. He has planned things out even before i was born and He will reveal them in the right and perfect timing.

my future's gonna be so BRIGHT with Jesus in it.

amen! (:

kay. im gg to slp now. gotto work tml.

night world!

you'll be blessed ;)