well, i guess this is my last post for the year 2006.

i must say that the year 2006 had been an eventful year for me. as i look back, i realised that ive learnt many things from things ive been made to go through this year. each time when i start to blame or question God for all the screw ups, clouds of self pity will blur my vision from the bigger picture, the purpose of things happeing. i must say that God have been gracious to me, each time when i start to go crazy and do stupid stuff or when i start to go all rotten and astray, He has forgiven me time and time again.

with each mishap, a piece of puzzle was given. as i gather more and more pieces of this puzzle and as i fix them together, out of a sudden, everything starts to make sense.

being out working in the society, makes me realized that without God, how wasted and selfish a person can be. back stabbing and more back stabbing. everyone for his or her own gains. no one will rly bother bout you. it's hard to find true friends in such circumstances. but fortunately, in every job ive been working at, im able to get along with everyone. i know im blessed with the favour of men and im thankful to know great working pals like winnie and hui min while working at fish & co. :D

but no one can ever replace these people in my life. they are namely tiffany and glenys. friends. my true friends. people whom i cherish the most but yet hurt the most.

not forgetting, my best friend and sister ziling. the one who has gone through countless of my full blown pmses and also the one who is always on receiving end for all my crap. she is my darling and like what ive always been saying my pride and joy. but having such a capable and intelligent sister like her isnt easy.

humans like to compare, that i understand. sometimes on purpose, sometimes unknowingly.

as the eldest of the family, there certain expectations to be met. most of the time, you are expected to set a good example for your younger siblings to follow. unfortunately, ive failed to do so. my sister outshines me in many aspects. take academic for example. my studies was never as good as hers. i can hardly cope with combined science let alone triple science. some of you might say that it's sibling rivalry. but let me tell you it's not. im not jealous of my sister or any of her achievements instead im disappointed in myself for not performing better or setting a better example for her to follow. many times, i feel ashamed of myself when my sis has to advise me or counsel me on things. it should be the other way round isnt it?

oh well, ive understand that each of us are made in a different way, all of us are called to do different things. i pray that next year, i will be a better older sister to her.

someway or another, i know that im a easily influence person. matthew has told me before, so does jeric, tiffany and glenys. ive lost my way too often but have always found my way back by the grace of God. however, i sick of playing this lost and found game. i want to learn how to stand firm on my beliefs and lead my life in check.

anyway, the year 2006, i wouldnt say that it ended on a good note with all the natural disasters going on. typhoon in Philippines. earthquake in Taiwan. floods in Indonesia and Malaysia. Singapore is truly blessed. all our neighbouring countries' been affected except us. i think this is a sign to count our blessings.

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in the year 2007, i will try my best to be nicer to my dad.

amen.