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half of the day crept passed in the haze of moody-ness; if there's such a word.
attitud-ed my collegue and my boss. got no clue wad's wrong wit me today. definately not pms. *pulls my hair and screams; I HAVE NO LIFE!!!!!!!

it reallaye gets me depressed.
tot bout my secondary sch life and the events in it. come to think of it, i've led a rather "vibrant" and "happening" school life. wit all the girl politics, school politics, bgr and blah blah blah. realized all these while i've been seeking for ppl's approval in everything i did. i seldom or rather dun hav a mind of my own. tat's real sad isn't it. been yearning for ppl's acceptance but deep inside i've nva real accept myself for who i am. everything i did seem so surface. recalled a teacher quoting smthg lyk; "you cant expect everyone in the world to lyk you cos there bound to be sum tat hates you." left a deep imprint.

lyk wad i've been telling myself, i've graduated; left this sch. so i must put down everything that's related to it. it's a new begining, a brand new chapter of my life. it's tym to drop the heavy load i've been carrying for four years, moove on. moove on. moove on.

those crashes and relationships are history. i've grown out of it, seen it all. mayb i can write a biography bout my secondary school life huh? lol. think too much. but at least when i've my adopted child, i can tell him/her bout my sec sch life for bed tym stories. hahs.

this valentines's day will be a lonely one i guess. i shall go borrow dvds and watch at home while nys is out with paul, tiff out wit i-dunno-who, zing *hopefully* wit tat 1.8m guy, ruby? wit her dvds. hahs. seriously, i dun mind been wit my teevee and dvds. just dun get me go out and witness ppl lovely-dovely with each other, it's showing disrespect to my loneliness.

i've been reading sherlyn's blog for quite awhile. realized she's actually a nice person.
see, this wad rumours and gossips does; giving ppl the wrong impression of the person.

let's say, A tells B that she finds C's Boyfriend Z is not bad, good looking. den B went to tell D tat A find Z not bad and is interested in him. den D went to tell C tat A finds her boyfriend not bad and wants to seduce and steal him away. HELLO!! see how words can be twisted? ever played the pass the msg game? you'll know what i mean.

so i wanna apologize to sherlyn. i've misunderstood her.
*so sorry, girl.*

2 moore days. . . .