//SORRY RACH & PRIS!//
for pai seh-in' you guys ytd. i'll make it up to you guys yea?


watched Aeon Flux on monday. not reallaye my kinda muvee. but had a great company. (: the lead actress is SUPER HOT. though i dunno what's her name. went window shoppin' too. enjoyed myself. (:


hankering to watch; PERPHAPS LOOVE. <3


something's gotten over me. mayb it's pms. i dunno. i'm lost. yes. emptyed. living in the fabrication of my own fanasty. aimlessly. been thinking alot. day dreaming. though i noe the solution out of this, but i can't bring myself to walk tat path. call me stupid, call me dumb. it doesn't matter anymore.

don't upset my emotions by showin' care and concern for me. it scares me when i'm treated nicely. it'll set me in bemusement and makes me feel indebted to you as dunno how to "repay" you. all i want is to feel nothing. i don't want to sense emotions. they confuse me.

i wan/dun wan to leave myself in this state; numb. i've got no clue on wad i reallaye want. it's overtakin' me. overwhelmin' me. crashin' down lyk mighty waves of the ocean.

most of the things around me are fibs, lies, deceit. no one's true. we're all made up.
i'm gg soo dooowwnnn and wrrrooonngg. you myte deride me. or even say this is wad i deserved. it doesn't bother me anymore. say what you want, scoff at me. i'm just gonna do wadever i lyk. even if you dun lyk it.

farewell; smiles.
-masked up.