feelin' weird the first thing in the mornin'. guess it could be not gg to church on a sunday mornin'. it used to be my lifestyle for 2yrs? even though i've 'mia' for 2-3 months, i still do feel odd not being in church on sundays and many tyms i hav the urge to go back. however i dun wan and i dread to return to the lifestyle that i once had; one constantly filled wit gulit and pressure? for not being able to meet up to expectations? i hate not bein' able to do wad i wanna do. this could be or it is my rebellious natural. but tell you wad, i'm lovin' every bit of my life now. even though i do miss being in the presence. just one wrong move and end up back to where everything began.

to jh(i hope you'll be readin'); don't waste your tym on me cos we'll be friends forever okays? (:
apologize that this is the only way i can bring it up to you.

gotto start plannin' and workin' on the big thing on the 23th dec. can't wait.